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happy kickout/freedom day to us

jaxen doesnt remember jeani
jaxen doesnt remember a lot from the past year
jaxen doesnt fear loud noises any more
jaxen has seen what normal relationships are like


we are safe
we are loved
we have a future

being kicked out was the best thing she ever did for us ..

BEST

THING

EVER

:)

is excited to not only be in LOVE with an imaginary internet friend, but to be meeting up with some of them in the next few months.
wow
who knew you could INTERACT with imaginary internet friends IRL.
wow. .

<3

i dont care..




"69 Tea"

Lonely in this white room, there are pads everywhere
Chafing straitjacket, I won’t die in there
Save me smiling Jesus, get off that cross
Hate me screaming masses
I don’t care if I’m lost
Don’t tell me that you’re all better
I don’t care if you are Don’t tell me that you’re trendsetters
I don’t care if you are

Lowly with my head bowed, there are rats everywhere
Feed me bread and water
I won’t die in there
Save me smiling Jesus, get off that cross
Hate me screaming masses
I don’t care if I’m lost

Don’t tell me that you’re all better
I don’t care if you are Don’t tell me that you’re trendsetters
I don’t care if you are

Say you will take my pills
Say you will faking ill

Don’t tell me that you’re all better
I don’t care if you are Don’t tell me that you’re bed wetters
I don’t care if you are
Say you will take my pills
Say you will faking ill
Say you will (say you will) take my pills (take my pills)
Say you will (say you will) faking ill

oh yes.. so perfect.. enjoy





"Fake It"

Who's to know if your soul will fade at all
The one you sold to fool the world
You lost your self-esteem along the way
Yeah

[Chorus:]
Good god you're coming up with reasons
Good god you're dragging it out
Good god it's the changing of the seasons
I feel so raped
So follow me down
And just fake it if you're out of direction
Fake it if you don't belong here
Fake it if you feel like affection
Woah you're such a fucking hypocrite

And you should know that the lies won't hide your flaws
No sense in hiding all of yours
You gave up on your dreams along the way
Yeah

[Chorus]

Whoah
Whoah

I can fake with the best of anyone
I can fake with the best of em all
I can fake with the best of anyone
I can fake it all

Who's to know if your soul will fade at all
The one you sold to fool the world
You lost your self-esteem along the way
Yeah

[Chorus]

Fake it if you're out of direction
Fake it if you don't belong here
Fake it if you feel like infection
Woah you're such a fucking hypocrite


I have no space, no room to move around
And this box is getting smaller
I'm trying to get out

How did I get so far from where I was?
When did I decide to lose my way?
Who have I become…

I got a new low, all 52 cards in a row
I see now that I won't let go
No I won't let go

Well who am I, a cold shoulder left to cry
You feel bad, well so do I
Yeah so do I

I've been right, I've been left
I've been wrong, I've been left behind
I've been up, but mostly down (x2)

I cannot help feeling like I have so much at stake
So I lock myself inside my head and I just run in place
So many directions I don't know which way to go
I'm so busy doing nothing I got nothing to show

I got a new low, all 52 cards in a row
I see now that I won't let go
No I won't let go

Well who am I, a cold shoulder used to cry
You feel bad, well so do I
Yeah so do I

I've been right, I've been left
I've been wrong, I've been left behind
I've been up, but mostly down (x2)

I make mistakes just like everybody else
But instead of letting go of it, I can't forgive myself
I did my time in a windowless box
Like it or not
All I got now is today
Tomorrow aint here
Yesterday is gone dead on me anyway

I've been right, I've been left
I've been wrong, I've been left behind
I've been up, but mostly down (x4)
Yeah the slight of my hand is now a quick pull trigger

yawn

i am jacks indifferent apathy

May. 18th, 2011

OK lj help me. there was this movie that we watched a million times in the 80s on HBO, people put on a head band? that let them see others peoples thoughts or dreams. one of the people was wearing it when s/he died? and of course i can PICTURE the people in it, but cannot come up with a name for the life of me. anyone ??? anything??

** got it **
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0085271/

Brainstorm

top of the pops

i do not care what you like or do not like. this song is just the #1 top favorite of mine of ALL TIME.. it is just beyond perfect.. judge me on this if you must, but OMG.. it is just amazing

VOID

not satanic

i sat for 3 hours straight for the tattoo on my lower back. i got it on the 1st anniversary of my grams passing.. it means this : "This pentacle, carved with Celtic knotwork as well as traditional Celtic swirl patterns. It is a symbol of Earth and Prosperity as seen in the tarot. The Pentacle in its upright position represents the Spirit in balance and harmony with the four elements. The inscription around its edge is from "The Charge of the Goddess" and reads: "I am the beauty of the green earth and the white moon among the stars." "


and the pentacle is NOT of satanic origin.. see : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pentacle .. and this.. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pentagram

and psst.. satan is a judeo-christian construct, and is not in my belief system.. just saying.. ( look it up joe! )



shut up when i am talking to you..
shut up

cold beverage

Baby, I have no story to be told,
But I've heard one on you and I'm gonna make your head burn,
Think of me in the depths of your despair,
Make a home down there as mine sure won't be shared,


Finally, I can see you crystal clear,
Go ahead and sell me out and a I'll lay your ship bare,
See how I'll leave with every piece of you,
Don't underestimate the things that I will do,

There's a fire starting in my heart,
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bring me out the dark,

she is amazing..



There's a fire starting in my heart,
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bring me out the dark,

Finally, I can see you crystal clear,
Go ahead and sell me out and a I'll lay your ship bare,
See how I'll leave with every piece of you,
Don't underestimate the things that I will do,

There's a fire starting in my heart,
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bring me out the dark,

The scars of your love remind me of us,
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all,
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless,
I can't help feeling,

We could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
Rolling in the deep,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
You had my heart inside of your hand,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
And you played it to the beat,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),

Baby, I have no story to be told,
But I've heard one on you and I'm gonna make your head burn,
Think of me in the depths of your despair,
Make a home down there as mine sure won't be shared,

The scars of your love remind me of us,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
I can't help feeling,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),

We could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
Rolling in the deep,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
You had my heart inside of your hands,

(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
And you played it to the beat,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),

Could have had it all,
Rolling in the deep,
You had my heart inside of your hands,
But you played it with a beating,

Throw your soul through every open door,
Count your blessings to find what you look for,
Turn my sorrow into treasured gold,
You'll pay me back in kind and reap just what you've sown,

(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
We could have had it all,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
We could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
It all, it all, it all,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),

We could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
Rolling in the deep,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
You had my heart inside of your hands,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
And you played it to the beat,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),

Could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
Rolling in the deep,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
You had my heart inside of your hands,

But you played it,
You played it,
You played it,
You played it to the beat.


fuck
you

skynet

self aware @ 8:11pm 19april2011
you have been warned.
and according to funny or die, "The greatest trick Skynet ever pulled was convincing the world it didn't change its name to Google."

arnold schwarzenegger
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..

I AM JACKS SEETHING APATHY

hey

just wanted to say thanks for all the support from all my imaginary internet friends, not quite sure what i would do without all of you

omg the love..



she died the day before i was born.. just saying..

give her a listen



she is amazing..

PORN!



which would mean so much more after watching this..

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